I have officially spent too much time on the internet, and here is how I know: I have no idea how people make friends in real life any more. Ever since I got back from New York I have missed my friends terribly and felt their absence in life out here.
Because I don’t feel good at it, it’s easy for me to just avoid it. But that doesn’t solve all my problems, it just keeps me from feeling awkward temporarily. Oh guys, right after I moved here I went on a friend-date (is this a term?) with a woman who went to college with two of my friends back East. She was perfectly nice and really smart and cool, and I was just a total damp sponge of nervousness. I really had nothing to say other than “I must have human contact at all costs!!!” So we really haven’t hung out since then. And it’s not the kind of thing I feel like I can write about on Facebook etc., because those are all about making your life look good and yourself look proficient in things. At most a self-deprecating joke on Twitter, no more.
Then this morning I was reading about crazy running groups in Runner’s World on the train to work and I thought “THAT would be the ticket!!” Only I would probably not be able to keep up with them, which impeded my progress. Or maybe that is just an excuse??? I sometimes ran with a group in New York who were always really nice to me, but I always had a sense of not being able to hang with the group. I wanted to hang! But at the end of the day, they were always superfast, and I was not.
But seriously, how do grown-ups make friends?